kittay
Song of True Confessions
I am two, but one
Internally solemn, externally vivacious
I am broken, but whole
You know not the sorrows that I do
You know not how I feel
So how then could you understand?
I am like half and half
Always unsure
I cannot seem to get to the core
The root of the problem
It most likely is
Some thing about my two fathers or two mothers or more
I am adopted
I have two families
And now that I know both it makes life complicated
It makes me stop and wonder
Why did this happen to me?
When I want normalcy I get drama and lose more
Than before
When I want freedom from the scars that define me I get lost
Within my mind
When I want the everlasting love of a close family
I get reality
This life is not mine, I never asked for any of it
But this defines me, and this IS me
So I need to push forward and try a little harder
Past the hatred
To those who tease or make fun, I say
Grow up
To those who refuse to believe that I am sane, I say
Have faith
To those who hate…… I say
Stop
Stop the cruelty
Stop the meanness
Do not let this define YOU
As I have let it define ME
Because whatever you do to your neighbor,
Will surely occur to you
But worse
I have been on both sides
I have lived both lives
I am two, but one
Internally solemn, externally vivacious
I am broken
Not whole
And so when people ask
I smile and say
Hello, Oh yes, I’m fine…….. But it’s a lie
